Hi fellow players....on July 9th i had recieved notification that my runescape account was on a 10 day ban for supposedly "powerlevling", and no never in my life have i or would i ever pay real money to get levels, as i am good at it myself. I am hoping that my account wont be on a high zone like red....I pray to god it's on yellow. It upsets me to a point where i want to quit the game i mean comon....i dont do that stuff but yet i get accused of it and even though i appealed...i lost. Honestly is jagex's #1 game runescape with over 130 million accounts created where i should be? I am in top 70,000 place out of 130,000,000...yet i am beginning to wonder...Who are my real friends, Who really does love me, Is this game for me, What if i so close to the 10 black marks i cant make one mistake...what do i do then..

People need to understand my story....I began playing the jagex action filled game people called runescape....yes it was good to play but at first i discovered death and kept giving up....then learned more, improved my personal game and learned to become good. When i first played in 2004 around the month of June i think...i had no friends, and no goals, and didn't really know what would be the outcome with runescape in my life.

In October of 2005 My great aunt who was there for me through everything had passed on to a better place and yet i couldn't figure out death at the time, why her and what death overall is about. After this i started going into long, exhausting, challenging months where i had thoughts of killing myself. I don't know why i had these thoughts but i did, and after this i went to see a counselor aka "shrink" about this and my problems became solved, and after that iv'e had some OCD (over compulsive disorder) and high levels of anxiety. Well as of now i don't have over compulsive disorder, nor anxiety. But throughout this whole ordeal runescape in a way was my savior. I had to keep my mind off suicide, and runescape did it for me, and now i think that runescape is pure addiction. I still want to know more of death and maybe someday develop a religon i believe in.

Recently this year i have encountered a major road block...It was a tough year i guess you would say. I had gotten molested recently this year by an unknown stranger and am forever scarred with this memory. I have become a "Hero" in many peoples eyes after this. Well after this happened in a public place, there was heightned measures taken to prevent this from happening again. I knew by the way this happened that this guy wasn't doing this for the first time and indeed my predictions were right. This guy was a counselor for Boce's students who are mentally retarded or slow, or need extra help. Well i found out this guy was reported touching some of the girls at car washes the local Boce's program put on, and he grabbed some people real close. But no one ever spoke up untill now. I became the first voice to take a stand and say things arent going any further, currently i am on a ongoing process with this case, and i have been told it will probably end up in a court case. I am so scared, i am afraid, i can't see this guy again. Another guy touched a guy which was me it's not right i live embarassed to talk to my family about it and well they know now. Do you really call me a "hero"?

I don't know if you all really understand what this 10-day ban has meant to me. I have nothing throughout this ten day period, and yet i don't understand what is pushing me to continue. I mean it's not fair at all being convicted of something you didn't do but what am i supposed to do... i can't do a thing about it except send in a 400 character appeal. Which by means isn't enough room to say what i wanted. Jagex screwed me over! But why me of all people. Honestly i never did anything that bad throughout my runescape career.

I have lost so much during this period of time it's unbelievable. I loose out on making money so i can stay ahead of somebody i am in competition with seeing who stays ahead and up to now i was ahead but at the moment she is there now. Why do i get slowed up? I can't just yell out and say stop making money because thats not fair to her. I also lose out on my best friends Gigi20001's voice, knowing whats going on in her life, playing games with her in runescape, and telling her some things that mean alot to me. My friend Endokron basically hates me for nothing but hopefully we will resolve it like usual, and my friend blon will always be there for me. Third part of password is-baby